Feeling Good About Myself

Monday again. Unlike most Monday's today went easy. I didn't find any of the cases or classes to challenging. Who's to say I got it right, but I guess sometimes you just need to trust yourself. Although I am never sure how I will be here in January, I have a reneued sense that I can make it. I think that once you let yourself relax, your understanding of the material comes just a little easier. Of course, have good friends never hurt either. I was thinking about my friend Chris a lot this week. I am sure he feels a lot of the same anxiety that I do. Getting married must be both a stress and a joy. Maybe the key is just to enjoy the ride.
That enjoyment is hard though. I have always considered myself a control freak. I know it is a part of me so it should be something I could let go. Personal understanding can create growth. Somehow, I must not want to let go. I guess that might be why I am who I am. Who knows, maybe moderation will find me, maybe not. How does one let go. To some it comes so easy and to others, the fear of losing control is a fate unspeakable. Mearly the word brings comfort to me, much like free market. How can a series of words bring so much comfort when only ideas. Even if the words never materialize, The mere thought of them soothes the soul. Well I had better wrap up this thought and get back to the real work. Remember, only in your mind can true success be celebrated. No one else can appreciate you accomplishment more than yourself.